Shit Said To Depressed People
Hi guys.
I don’t want to sound pathetic but I feel like absolute shit right now. I got really triggered. It’s like communicating with humans triggers me. I don’t know. I’m extremely upset right now. It’s not even just the depression. Everyday I see so much intolerance, self-righteousness, ignorance, and cruelty all around me. It makes me feel sick. I don’t want to live here - I don’t want to live in a world like this.
I try to stand up in attempt to change the world, but it’s too much. I feel like I’m standing alone in this. I almost always seem to hold the unpopular stance. The masses stick together, feed off of each other, and degrade me.
Humanity doesn’t seem to be changing for the better, and it hurts. It really fucking hurts. Even when the hate isn’t directed towards me, I get so hurt. I know I’m an extremely sensitive person - maybe too sensitive for this world. I’m so tired of fighting, only to be mocked and ridiculed. This isn’t only about the stigma of mental illness. It’s about intolerance and a lack of compassion in general. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I was trying to fight for understanding, but they say I look like a fool. And I know I do. Because in their eyes, I’m so, so wrong. People don’t understand me and it’s like I’m getting myself into these hopeless battles and arguments. But I can’t not try.
I never thought I’d do this, but I called the crisis center because I felt really unstable. I’ve been scared of calling them. They said they’d call back an hour ago, but nothing so far. I don’t even know… Honestly, I wouldn’t mind staying at a hospital at this point.
I’m sorry if I sound whiny right now. I’m sorry if I sound overly pessimistic, but I feel like I have good reasons to be so negative. This past week, I’ve been feeling so numb, but I’m breaking down right now. I’m so tired of this world…
Hearing people mock mental illnesses and claim they are just “excuses” for people who don’t want to take responsibility for their “bad habits” make me furious. I want to hit someone. (Maybe that would help knock the ignorance out of them? :/…)
Edit: Fuck, I’m having an emotional break down. I hate this world.
SSTDP #17: “Life is tough. It doesn’t mean you have a disease.”
Of course there is some truth to this; not everyone who faces struggles in life has a disease. However, this is an ignorant thing to say about clinical depression (or any illness, really). While life is indeed tough, it isn’t normal for one to find getting through everyday life challenging. It isn’t normal for one to become exhausted by the simple chores and daily routines of life (e.g. getting up, showering, brushing teeth, etc.). It isn’t normal for one to lose his/her will to live. Depression isn’t a made up illness for those who want to whine about life without working for what they want. If you’re so ignorant about depression that you disbelieve such a condition even exists, be grateful that you only seem to be able to fathom how “tough” life can be without being in the grasp of a crippling, invisible illness.
Major Depressive Disorder
Symptoms of major depressive disorder include feelings of sadness and emptiness, difficulties getting out of bed, loss of appetite, excessive feelings of guilt, difficulties concentrating, and suicidal thoughts or plans. Major depression is diagnosed when symptoms are present for at least two weeks, have a sudden onset and are significant enough to impact daily functioning.
Dysthymia
Symptoms of dysthymia include feelings of hopelessness; sleeping and eating too much or too little; fatigue; poor concentration; and low self-esteem. These symptoms cause distress but are not as severe as the symptoms of major depression. Dysthymia is a long-term condition and is diagnosed when these symptoms are present nearly every day during a period of two years.
Similarities
The symptoms of major depressive disorder and dysthymia are very similar. Both disorders are characterized by sad mood, loss of pleasure and changes in appetite, sleep and energy. Both disorders can be treated successfully with medication and/or counseling.
Differences
Differences between major depressive disorder and dysthymia are characterized by levels of severity, duration and persistence. For example, the change in mood in major depression occurs nearly every day during a period of two weeks, whereas in dysthymia, the mood disturbance occurs more days than not during a two-year period. Dysthymia may be reported less than major depression, as its symptoms are less severe. Technically, dysthymia is a pervasive “low level” depression that lasts a long time – often a few years. major Depressive disorder is a discrete episode of severe depression. When it is gone, the patient is in “remission,” and feels completely normal. Recurrent major depressive disorder comprises discrete periods of major depression that come and go, while major depressive disorder in partial remission is a severe discrete episode that never completely gets better. How does that feel any differently than dysthymia, you might ask? It doesn’t. These terms are descriptions, not different diseases.
Sources:
http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/49/8873/dysthymia-major
http://www.ehow.com/about_5367216_major-depressive-disorder-vs-dysthymia.html#ixzz20vZMXfEg
Then there’s “double depression” - a term to describe a major depressive episode on top of dysthymia. Though, I wonder what it’s called when someone with dysthymia gets out of a major depressive episode… Oh, I seemed to have found the answer:
If the Major Depressive Episode has been superimposed on Dysthymic Disorder, the diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder, In Partial Remission, is not given once the full criteria for a Major Depressive Episode are no longer met; instead, the diagnosis is Dysthymic Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder, Prior History.
Note: Did you know a Major Depressive Episode is not necessarily a disorder in itself? More information about Major Depressive Episodes and Major Depressive Disorder: here, here, and here.
SSTDP #16: “Everyone gets a little depressed sometimes.”
If everyone experiences clinical depression sometimes, I doubt there would be so much ignorance and inconsideration surrounding this topic. Perhaps everyone feels a little depressed sometimes, but fleeting feelings of depression are different from clinical depression. Being clinically depressed isn’t a feeling. One of the many symptoms of depression is feeling depressed.
I find this statement quite invalidating. When I hear this, it seems like the person is saying, “You’re making a big deal over nothing; everyone goes through it and gets over it.”
Depression is a serious mental illness that takes many lives each year. No, it’s not some little phase that we’re being melodramatic about.
thepicturedictionary asked: Manic depression can bring about hallucinations. I have bipolar disorder and suffer from both audio and visual hallucinations. I just wanted to put that out there for the person who asked. P.S. I love your blog! Im exceedingly grateful. I passed it onto my parents as they have had a difficult time understanding. X
Thanks for the input! :)
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very-fancy-detective asked: Have anything for those of us who are depressed and hallucinate? Things said to us, or words of comfort?
Ah, I don’t have very much experience with this. Though, I’ve had this period where I would frequently experience hypnagogic hallucinations along with sleep paralysis. It was terrifying; I’d see and hear scary things while feeling unable to do anything about it. I found that sleeping with the lights on helped prevent that from occurring.
It kind of sounds like you have psychotic depression, but correct me if I’m wrong. Perhaps some of my followers have experienced this as well? Any input? :)
